Mark and I were married June 25 2005. We both knew we wanted children from the get go. We even had a boy name picked put before we were engaged. We (I) wanted everything to be just right and settled before we had our first child together. After we bought our home and got settled we started trying for a baby. This was July 2007.
I have always know in my heart that we were gonna be parents so after we had been trying for a few months I didn't think anything about it. I had read that a young healthy couple could take up to 18 months to get pregnant. Time started to zoom past, with each passing month Mark got more and more let down. Somehow the whole time I was positive and upbeat trying to reassure him each month when my cycle came that it would happen for us. This whole time we had kept us even trying a secret. We wanted to surprise our family. FYI- bad idea if you are having issues getting pregnant, they will ask constantly "when are y'all having kids?" "what are you waiting for?" It takes a toll once you have been trying for a few years like us.
Mark had been wanting to see a specialist for a while but for some reason I kept putting it off. I'm not sure if it was because I was afraid that the problem was me and how he might react to knowing I was the problem. Or if it's honestly because I know we will be parents and it will happen in Gods perfect timing.
November 2009 it really started weighing on me, I was being selfish and not considering Mark in all this. Just because I was comfortable (or I thought I was) with waiting doesn't mean he is and in the end I want us to both be happy. So December 2009 I made an apt with Dr. G. to find out where to go from here. After I told Mark we had an apt the following Friday his attitude completely changed. He was elated (for lack of better word)!!! Once we met Dr. G he told us that there are multiple treatment options we could consider (depending on our particular problem) and the success rate of each. I was so excited that we could possibly have our own bundle of joy by the end of the year (2010).
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